20 months old pilar arezki

hai there dear pilar

you turned 20 months old this month. how time flies. it seems only yesterday you were born. look at you now! tall, handsome, talkative, smart, so curious about anything..

dear son, forgive me for not being near you all day. you have my heart you know it. this morning we left and we saw you holding your tears. as if you don't want us to go. you were strong son, i wasn't.

forgive me when i stop you from doing something. this something must be dangerous son, it's not just something. you probably don't know now, someday you will. offcourse you will cause you're such a smart kiddo.

forgive me son, we have about 4 months to go before we'll finally decide to wean you. it'll be a difficult process, for both of us. you know son, this weaning thing scares me so much that if the quran says to wean you when you're 4 years old, i will do it. it is the moment when i feel that the world is only between you and me, noone else. it's mama-pilar time, titik. i'm scared to loose it. will you still love me then? offcourse you will ya son? i hope you will.

forgive me for being fragile lately.

may hapiness surround you everywhere you go.
may Allah protect you in every step you take.

je t'aime mon coeur. je t'aime.