mellow me

semakin ga rela harus ninggalin pilar seharian buat kerja...

semakin ga rela harus relain pilar mimi dari dot...

clock is ticking... less than a month to go.

some say i have to start "leave" him during the day so he'll get used to it.

but i'm not ready, these days are too precious for me to spend my day without him.

i fear he won't be as close as he is after i get back to work.

i fear he'll get "nipple confusion" cause he'll drink from bottles during the day.

but i have to be optimistic and confident, that pilar is a clever boy. he'll bury my fear. he'll reckon me as his mother, he'll miss drinking the milk right from his mom's breast. he'll understand my choice to continue working? that's a little too soon.

one thing for sure, i love you son, i'll do my best to take care of you. that's my promise.