that saddest thing has happened to me.
no, i'm not fired nor gained another kilos. but my baby boy for once turned his back on me and preferred his nanny over his own mom. i tried to find the reason why.. maybe because these last few days he's been sick and i still go to the office (eventhough on lunch break i accompany him to the hospital to take his inhalation treatment), or maybe because he got up late lately after both of his parents went to work so the first face he saw in the morning was his nanny.. or maybe due to my sickness last weekend that i couldn't be focus 100% playing with him.. or i dunno, i'm just too sad to find out why, while i know that this wouldn't have happened if i'd just stay at home and take care of my baby 24/7.
hm, but then we'd go back to the long and never ending discussion on why i keep doing my job until now. but it is that simple actually. son, if you read this one day, if i could, i would give up anything in this world, for you. and there is no bullshit on this. you have my word.
so for now, i'd just swallow these tears of mine. and be grateful for god has sent a kind and trustworthy lady to help me taking care of my boy when i'm out to work. for god has given me and husband good job so that we can afford our little family. subhaanallaah, walhamdulillaah..