This year

I will be missing the kid’s annual performance at school. He’s been rehearsing for months and updating me every now and then the progress. It simply breaks my heart. Even though the father managed to get annual leave and we managed to get grandma’s presence on the date, I’m still hurt and there’s no way I can cope with the feeling.

As much as it’s hard for me, it is indeed harder for the kid. Up until now, he still can’t bare the fact that mama will be going to another biz trip right on the date he will be performing. He keeps saying that I could still go to work but I shouldn’t go anywhere outside the country. “Your office is in Jakarta, not in Italy nor Austria. So stay!” Son, if only I had the power to stop the time and postpone all the related work issues just for that day, watch you perform LIVE, not just the video the school preparing.

For now I still can resist to shed no tear. I don’t know then. Probably work will keep me busy, but you know what? Even though I will be far by distance, you know I’m always close by heart.

I love you kid. Kill the stage. Make mama proud like you always do.