Recap 1

1 March 2009 2510 g, 47 cm
7 March 2009 2270 g
13 March 2009 2390 g, 48 cm
23 March 2009 2800 g, 49 cm
28 March 2009 3000 g (today was supposed to be the due date)
30 March 2009 2935 g (ko turun? kayanya beda timbangan beda hsol deh), 50 cm

2 minggu pertama, hobi bobo susah bgt dibangunin buat nenen, udah mulai bisa nyusu di hari ke-5 tapi masih cukup sering disendokin asinya. sukanya nyusu yg kiri, susah latch-on di yg kanan, kalo nangis kenceeeeng bgt suaranya.. kadang masi suka rewel malem2.

2 minggu kedua, semakin jago nyusu..tapi udah mulai sering keselek :( hiks... kayanya karena asi mamanya udah mulai banyak, jadi tiap mau netein harus diperes2 biar ga terlalu gede flownya (itupun masi keselek). harus ekstra hati2 kalo netein, karena pilar juga makin rakus. yg bahaya kalo dia udah ngantuk tapi tetep hajar nyedot, bisa2 susu numpuk di mulutnya..keselek lagi deh :(
udah jago latch on di yg kanan juga.
udah ga rewel kalo malem, malah harus dibangunin mamanya kalo mu nenen.
nyaris ga pernah disendokin, mimi langsung dari mama. alhasil, asi perah numpuk di freezer. dengan kondisi udah dibuangin sebagian, freezer udah penuh, botol kaca udah abis. alhamdulilah, moga2 bisa lulus asi eksklusif ya sayang.
tambah ndut, baju newbornnya mulai tampak pas di badan pilar.
tampak sangat menikmati kalo lagi dipijit suster atau mamanya (wah, menurun ya hobi dipijit ini).

update on 30/03/09
oya, skarang pilar kalo udah kenyang mimi ga langsung bobo. minta dieyong2 dan dinyanyiin mamanya dulu. kalo diboboin belum pules2 amat, ngeeengggg nangis deh. trus nafsu makannya gedeeee bgt. grow spurth kah? alias nafsu makan meningkat karena mau cepet besar? asiiiik :)
tapi sedihnya walopun udah kenyang, gesturenya suka kaya masi laper.. ngelel2, cari2 cucu mama... sempet dinenen, eh taunya munti2 :( udah kebanyakan mimi dia.
yak, harus tetep belajar ni emak dan anaknya :)

ibu yg malas, masiii aja belom posting cerita lahiran. here's the thing. jadi sebenernya tuh cerita udah dibikin dari dulu2, tapi disave di laptop lama. nah karena skg udah punya netbook baru (ciye ciyeee, makasi ya papa pilar, sudah acc proposal beli netbook buat nemenin diriku selama cuti 3 bulan ini hehehe), males buat mindahin tu file ke kompi baru.

tapi mau cerita detik2 mau operasi aja deh.

hari minggu, tanggal 1 maret 2009, pagi2 cukur2 rambut, trus diclisma (dimasukin cairan ke dalam anus biar eenya keluar semua) aga vulgar ya acara di pagi hari ini. gue relax, ga terlalu mikirin takutnya dsb. orangtua udah pada dateng semua dari bandung dan jambi. bahkan menjelang operasi keluarga dekat lain mulai dateng. aga2 heboh si tapi seneng karena banyak yg ngasi support. tau2 udah jam 1 aja (operasi dijadwalin jam 2 siang). alhamdulilah ga tegang.

jam 1.15 langsung digiring ke kamar operasi, di sana dipasangin infus (yg pertama seumur idup gue!), dibuka bajunya (vulgar lagi deh). sambil nunggu tim dokter lengkap. dikenalin sama dokter anestesi dan ngobrol2 dikit sama nurse nya. senna ikutan ke dalem, ganti baju steril.

ga kerasa udah mau jam 2, dokter anestesi siap2 mo nyuntik epidural di spinal gue. gue liat di ruang operasi penuuuh bgt ama dokter dan nurse. dokter2nya udah kaya reunian aja. trus disuntik. rasanya? cemen lah kalo gue ngebandingin sama ibu2 yg lagi berjuang lahiran normal nunggu pembukaan (millions thumbs up for you mommies!). trus bagian bawah gue kebas rasanya. tapi masih sadar. gue bisa ngerasain ada tindakan, tapi ga sakit. oya, gue juga bisa cium bau daging kebakar waktu pisau nedahnya mulai belek2 perut gue hehehe. kebayang ya, senna ngeliatin semua proses itu. 7 menit kemudian, lahir deh Pilar. cepet bgt ya? katanya emang harus dibuat cepet biar biusnya ga nyampe bayi (cukup emaknya aja yg fly hehe). kaga ada IMD2an, tim dokter anak dan ahli jantung langsung cek keadaan bayi. yg gue syukurin bgt, Pilar nangis sekeras2nya waktu lahir, alhamdulilah. gue sempet denger dokter2 pd bilang "celestonenya manjur nih" (suntikan buat matengin paru2), dalem hati gue.. berarti paru2 Pilar sehat dan mateng nih. sempet denger mereka nyebutin berat badan dan panjang badan Pilar. 2.5 kilo, 47 cm. prediksi usg tepat nih. sempet takut meleset lebih rendah dari 2.5. ternyata pas2 aja.

Pilar langsung diboyong ke NICU ama tim dokter. gue diijinin sun sun Pilar dulu sebelum dipindah ruang. Habis itu fly beneran deh (kayanya pas lagi dijait deh). disuruh tidur aja ama dokternya dan gue dibawa ke ruang observasi. stay di sana sampai 2 jam sesudah operasi. senna beberapa kali nemenin gue karena gue ga tidur.

jam 5 boleh balik ke kamar. keluar kamar operasi gue amazed karena di sepanjang koridor menuju kamar, penuh ama sodara2 yg dateng buat ngasi dukungan. alhamdulilah, senang sekali :) dan dengar kabar kalau Pilar sehat semuanya, jantungnya, badannnya. APGAR scorenya 9/10! ck ck ck pangeran mama, pinter ya nak, kalo toefl udah dapet di atas 600 itu pastinya hehehe.

masih kebas sampe kira2 jam 8-9 malem, mulai deh sakit2 bekas jaitan datang :) sakitnya lebih sakit dari suntik epidural, lama lagi :) tapi karena gue nulis postingan ini 4 minggu sesudah operasi, di saat udah ga sakit lagi, tetep gue bilang kayanya jauh lebih sakit lahiran normal deh.

cerita lainnya nyusul yaa...

my hospital suit

my first visit to my pediatrician was on 13 march 2009. auntie na must love my outfit (check my hat & blanket, they're all pooh) :)

although almost all of my wardrobes are too big for me now, i'll catch up and wear them all one day. wish me luck!

kiss kiss,
pilar,
on my way to the hospital.

somehow, still cannot find more time to post stories pre & post birth of my angel pilar. maybe this weekend i'll try to post them.

however, he's in good condition. we went to his pediatrician yesterday, he's 49 cm and 2800 g now. i'm relieved. my biggest worry is how to keep my baby healthy (drink enough breast milk, have enough sleep, gain enough weight eventually).

and in the end... i know i shouldn't worry too much. it's all about discipline, being confident, and keep practicing. each new experience and habit looked so hard and scary at first place, but in the end i can handle them, and pilar can handle them as well. it's called: TEAM WORK!

pilar, mommy's in love with you each and every time.

Story behind a name, and more...

Pilar is common spanish/portuguese name. First time I knew it, it was my collegue's daughter name. I fell in love ever since. We didn't directly decide the name. We also loved Arezki as firstname.

Arezki, is taken from God's names (Asmaul Husna), Ar-Razk (or wealth giver), is a common north african name (marocco, tunisia, algeria). It has double meaning for us. First, him as a gift from God; Second, we pray that he will one day become also a wealth giver to his surrounding. Amin.

It was only one day or 2 days before his birth, we finally decided bebe's name. With all the heart weaking situation, we believed Pilar will make such a terrific first name, followed by Arezki as second name, and Avicenna, as Family name.

Pilar, you have shown us what strength, force, patience, and faith are. When mommy cried cause mommy got lost and didn't exactly know what to do, you were there, you kept struggling and kept the faith to meet us, your parents, soon.

And there you are, my Pilar, strong, clever, smiley, healthy boy. Mommy is still weak, but your presence has brought millions more power to us, millions more faith to us... from before you were born, until forever.

almost a month since my last post. so many things have happened. my baby boy is born, with bunch of stories behind. i'll share them afterwards.

all we can do is being grateful to God. for what we have now is impossible without His permission.

mommy and daddy welcome you to the world, Pilar Arezki Avicenna...