first wink, first kick

Finally, we went to the new hospital, new obgyn. It went well, didn't it bebe? We didn't have to wait for a long time, the doctor explained clearly, and the atmosphere is nice. No more stressful doctor visit as we used to do :) Daddy enjoyed this visit too you know? Good for us then!

Hey,hero! Mommy saw your first wink on the doctor screen the other day! You got surprised by the usg machine or what..? God, you were so cute! one second your eyes were closed, another second you gave us that winking til finally your eyes were opened all the time during the usg (only the doctor and mommy got to witness this, your dad missed it hehehe).

Anyway, the prediction now is moved to April, 1st 2009. You have legs as long as a 23 weeker, but head circonference as a 22 weeker, so doctor said you were probably as old as 22 weeks 3 days old during the visit. But others are fine, you're still as healthy as you were and will always be. Amin...

Last night, sorry for mommy's awful sleeping position, i didn't think you were cozy with it were you? for the first time, i woke up from my sleep cause something was kicking my tummy quiiiite hard. hey hey hey, wasn't it you, sonny? :) i felt anxious and happy at the same time cause i was afraid that you didn't sleep well because of me, and happy cause for the first time, it was a reaaaal kick i must say. before, i felt only things moving in my stomach, but last nite... hmm soccer player in the making :) -- or taekwondo athlete? hehehe :)

Despite the more intense feeling of out of breath, heartburn, and fatigue, your first wink and kick amazed me a looot more, bebe :) Love you!

hi there little bebe, what you've been up to lately? see, you'll be 23 weeks old in my womb tomorrow. we'll go and see the doctor to have a good look at you. your mom's tummy is quite biiig now, people will notice that you're inside. stay healthy huh young man! we know you're tough, even when i got dhiarrea last week and got so scared that you'd be impacted, well.. we could still hear your heartbeat real strong.

what a week this week huh bebe..? your mom's trying to be positive all the time, but sometimes things get worse. i'm so sorry if i get you to feel my worries, i never mean to. i promise i'll try better next time. more patient, more positive.

it's dark outside bebe, it's night already. we're waiting for your dad to pick us up and we'll have friday nite dinner as usual. i can hear you whisper "be patient mama. papa is there working as fast as he can, so that he can get here soon. i'm patient, and so should you mama."

thanks little hero, you have no idea how much you have given me strength with your presence. 17 weeks to go before i can finally hold you in my arms, hear you scream, wipe your tears, watch you grow... insya Allah. love you much little bebe..

not that sad, not that mad

pourtant le samedi dernier, j'etais shocquee par le fait que le medecin etain en conge sans personne me dit rien!!! alors qu'il y a deux petites semaines j'etais trop fachee car l'autre hopital m'avait fait cette "conspiration".

j'ai dit, ok je refais la reservation pour samedi prochain.

ca s'arrettait pas la. j'ai eu dhiarrea (je sais pas comment ca s'ecrit en francais et je m'en fiche d'ailleur) tout le week-end. j'ai pas eu le temps ni pour le demenage, ni pour jeter l'oeil a ma presentation.

eh ben, mon mari etait 24/24 que pour me soigner. il m'a meme ammenee a l'hopital a 5h du mat, meme si finalement ils m'ont dit de rester a la maison, pas besoin d'etre hospitalisee. c'est trop beau non?

ensuite, la presentation etait pas mal. mon chef m'a dit que c'etait tres bien.

je sais pas si j'en ai trop marre, ou si je suis trop epuisee, mais tout s'est bien passe, je pense. et je me sens pas trop mal non plus! bonne signe non?

beacoup de fois, quand j'ai moins de soucis, je me sens mal mal mal. eh ben, c'est pas le cas pour le moment. aaah ca doit etre le bebe :) il encourage sa maman pour qu'elle reste positive positive positive :) merci mon coeur :)

ngeceng2

katanya pamali beli2 keperluan bayi sebelum usia kandungan 7 bulan. tapi kalo ngeceng2 aja boleh kaaaan? :) siapa tau ada om2 dan tante2 yang mau ngasi kado ;) hahaha ngareppp..



duh, diaper bag denim ini keren bgt deh! pastinya senna juga ga bakal tengsin nentengnya hahaha (ga kebayang dia nenteng tas berwarna gonjreng, dengan motif bunga2 atau polkadot)



kemudian bottles bag + cooler warna itemnya juga baguuus gus gusss (tapi apa ga bakal disangkain tas kamera ya?) haha



liat deh stroller + car seater nya...ck ck ck.. si bebe pasti keliatan tambah gagah kalo nangkring di dalemnya :) tapi untuk urusan stroller/car seater ini harus lebih banyak survey. banyak bgt varian dengan range spek dan harga yang lebaaar... kemaren sempet liat stroller harganya 12 jeti di mothercare, yg tipe cameleon, wuiiiih keren bgt! ringan dan bisa dipake sampe dia udah gedean (3 taunan gitu). tapi ya kalo 12 juta udah dapet honda beat kaliii :D



atau yg 3 roda kaya gambar di atas. bebenya bisa bolak balik, liat depan atau liat yg dorong. ck ck ck... jaman dulu mah digendong aja pake samping (kain - bahasa sunda), kaga pake begini2an :D



oya, ada satu lagi yg dikecengin: bathware! lutu sekaliii yaaa :)

kalo udah ngeceng2 beginian (dan liatin harganya!!!) jadi males belanja2 keperluan mamanya dulu deh, hihihi... giliran bebe yaa sekarang :)

ah ah ah, ga sabar nunggu 7 bulan :)

udah kamis aja. sabtu si bebe mau kontrol ke dokter baru, moga2 jagoan. dan tempat untuk lahiran juga bagus...survey2 aah.
eit, sebelum sabtu, jumat malemnya ada acara kantor. ada dress code pula! hmm pake batik aja lah, aman! :)
minggu..
senin, glekkk ada presentasi aja. yayayayyy it's gonna be a short week-end.

i had a feeling this monday is not gonna be a nice day, fell asleep at around 9 pm (i usually don't fall asleep on sunday night, i plan at what time i'll be sleeping, and have plans in mind for the coming week)...but not last night, i fell asleep!

and...i slept in the car while my husband was driving. it aint good either, i dont sleep in the morning, in the car unless i hardly sleep the other night (but please, last night i had 8 hours sleep, more than enough!).

this morning my husband and i, we had to face a truth which is not easy. something that requires us to struggle more, in a continuos basis. the road is still long & winding, but i believe we can make it, as long as we're patient and persistent.

aaah bebe, we will have it dear, our future house, your future bed room, play room, little garden to run on... :) we just need more patient to take care some 'stuff' ok? it won't be ready by the time you're born, but when it is... we'll build our own paradise inside :) doakan mama dan papa ya be? :)

from a rockin' mother

i received an e-mail from a ticket box provider that Angels & Airwaves is coming to jakarta next month!
in a second i called my husband to ask his permission if i could reserve 2 tickets with early birds price (100k rups less!).
i knew it, he's not really into their music but i alreally had a back-up plan: ask my lil bro to accompany his 5 months preggie sist :) he said ok then, you can go.
in parallel, i exchanged messages with fellow balikpapan friend who's also their biggest fan for his opinion, "what would it be if a pregnant woman watches a rock concert in jakarta?".
i've been to some rock concerts but not in jakarta. some don't really have seats (all standing) which is not really favorable for me.
i checked the EO, and they confirmed that there will be seats.
ok, back to my balikpapan friend, he told me: "i think there won't be any riots, it's not cheap anyway (btw, he's been to incubus concert in jakarta last year), so i think it will be safe for you. one thing, poor baby of you, he's got to learn to rock (even since inside your tummy)!" hehehehe...

aaaaah, but finally i decided i won't go. on his second thought, my husband didn' allow me to. i will be 6 months pregnant, and he's afraid that i will be too tired after the concert and no good for me and the baby. he's got a point.

so, bebe, you miss your first rock concert huh? it's ok, you still have yearssss to come to find out how cool the music really is ;)

(God, please don't turn me into one of those obsessed parents trying to doctrin their children with what cool is.. they can find it out by themselves.. me, well, i'm just showing them what cool is, and let them decide in the end...huahahahaha)

love you much little bebe :)

banyak yaaa :)

week-end ini..

pengen menikmati week-end ga pake nyuci, nyetrika, ngepel, masak ... :)

pengen ngajarin si mba beres2 kamar gue, di mana naro apa, apa aja yg dibersihin, frekuensi ganti seprai, ...

pengen belanja bulanan, termasuk keperluannya si mba... beli buah yg banyak biar di kantor ngemil buah (kasian bebe kalo kebanyakan ngemil yg aneh2 hehe) ...

pengen cepet2 kelarin urusan tanah ...

pengen cepet2 liat bebe lagi di usg ... :) huhuhu miss you bebe...

pengen nonton quantum of solace ;)

pengen makan pancious lagi sekalian genapin 3 cap buat dapet vip card!

pengen makan pempek juga (senna sih yg mau, tapi gue ga nolak) :P

pengen cukup tidur dan istirahat ...

dan terutama pengen senna cukup tidur dan istirahat, he's been so busy and tired with his works, i'm concerned about his health :(

good news bad news..

good news dulu deh ya. akhirnya dapet juga asisten week-end kemarin. moga2 si mba betah ya, dan baik2 aja bantuin kami di rumah. mba yg ini kayanya lebih pengalaman dari yg sebelumnya. dia bisa ngatur menu sendiri, tinggal dikasi uang belanja per minggu aja. gue tinggal wanti2 aja menu yg senna dan gue ga terlalu suka, sisanya up to her.

bad news nya, gue merasa ada konspirasi di bagian pendaftaran rawat jalan rumah sakit tempat gue kontrol :( sejak awal bulan ini susternya bilang kita baru boleh book 3 hari sebelum hari-h. gue ceki2 4 hari sebelum, malem2, masih juga ditolak. pagi ini dong, 3 hari sebelum, jam 7 pagi ni yaa, gue ulang: jam 7 pagi... gue telpon, "bu, dapet no 15 ya.." what?? 15?? emang udah ada yg telpon dari jam 4 pagi ya?? huhuhuuu gue merasa dikerjain. gue yakin ada pasien2 lain yg "nitip" ama susternya :(

gue udah pernah disaranin ama temen2 gue sih, mendingan cari dokter jangan yg terlalu terkenal dan kebanyakan pasien. selain kita habis waktu buat nungguin dia, kualitas konsul pun jadi berkurang. pernah tuh gue tunggu dari jam 10 pagi dan baru dapet giliran jam 13.30, di ruangan dia paling 5 menit doang :( hiks...

dokter ini sebenernya punya tempat praktek sendiri dan gue udah pernah coba waktu minta surat jalan ke balikpapan. emang ga crowded dan dianya juga lebih intens periksanya. tapi hari kerja dan jam kantor euy :( pan gue pengen ditemenin suami kalo cek. waktu yg paling ideal emang hari sabtu pagi. setelah tanya dan browsing kanan kiri, dapet deh nama satu dokter yg praktek sabtu pagi dan rumah sakit tempat prakteknya lebih deket. dia cukup terkenal juga sih, tapi moga2 aja ga secrowded dokter gue yg ini. coba ah... siapa tau cocok.